Vulnerability and Me

Oh to be Vulnerable and not feel Shame."Yoga is experienced in that mind which has ceased to identfy itself with its vacillating waves of perception. When this haspens one rests in ones essential nature and the Seer is revealed." Sutra 2.1So here is the scene. When Victoria asks a question, and the the answer may possibly be no, then her potential feelings have been exposed. When I ask for feedback and none is given for improvement then what does that mean? We can't grow if we can't communicate. And grant it, there are thousands of ways in listening and communicating. Even non communicating is a form of communicating. And then a Ghost is born, let's call this Ghost "Assume."Here is a Story.I asked... "Hey, did you learn what you needed?"They all reply, "Yes" (That is communication as is No, which can then be proceeded with "How Can I do better?")Later One writes it down months after the question was given on numerous times.One writes, "Not willing to take feedback, wordered in a hint of Spite (my perspective)."So I am a bit confused and then there is the beginning of "Obstruction".How do you feel when you place yourself in a Vulnerable position and receive the later response later than when asked?Do you have emotions of Shame creep up into your thoughts? Do you feel happy, sad, elated?, resolved? I begin to question myself. "Failure is Beautiful." whispers Victoria Nahuel.Papi's (My Father) job was to analyze all kinds of things, provide feedback, and give a truthful answer to the materials or parts of technology so that there wouldn't be a fluke. But if he didn't provide that critical feedback, say a plane, might fall out of the sky, bc the computers in the nose of the plane, well didn't quite work.So I have this "Thing", that kinda gets under my skin. And that "Thing" is a the ability for other's to short change one self or another of growth or me. For the mere fact of, well, thinking it is not important for the plane to stay in the air. But's let's ask Assume. So this "Thing" surfaces "Other Things" and then I begin to question things, that have yet been questioned. And Growth begins.When we "Assume" that someone is not "Capable" to handle something, we have officially Stunted our own growth. A Ghost will only exist bc we created it.Communication. How we communicate is essential. How we Choose not to Communicate is a form of Communication and easily loveling holds hands with Assuming.All in time, yes, but with Intention.So Summer trickled into Autumn, and those who know me know I love living with the seasons. Summer was my time to feel the inner flame ignite with all kinds of emotions. I was all stirred up like the storms of the seasons. The residual Summer issues trickled in for final prep of release and exposure soon to be more vulnerable.  Autumn's intention is to watch the leaves fall away and cover Mother Earth. I don't need these emotions anymore. Discernment is a gift and Judgement is a waste. These emotions will lay peacefully on Mother Earth as they dissolve to renew a better life. I have planted new seeds and what I didn't let go of in Autumn, will be more Ghosts in my Chambers to dance with. There is a hollowness with ghosts. They are just as transparent as lines on a zebra."Your strongest strength is as weak as your weakest. The more you fail the more you can win. You can learn from that failure. Learning is winning. Every peice in life is a peice in Chess. Each step you take, you can be vulnerable, so step mindfully". ~ Victoria NahuelThank you my sweet, wise 8.5 year young Victoria Nahuel. And thank you Assume for teaching me the valuable lessons of how beautiful failing is. Bc I can rest like the leaves on our Mother Earth and surrender to become a more rich and fertile soil."When the mind becomes free from obstruction, all vacillations cease, and the mind becomes absorbed into spirit without producing future seeds. Thus a new mind is born of this wisdom, free of ignorance." Sutra 1.51~MaktubClaudia